January 17, 2018

I have really been enjoying my temp job at the Fontana Library. I like being able to be working around the books all day, and my coworkers are awesome so far. I am just kind of bummed that it's not a temp to hire position. I would have to take the test and fill out the application, and I missed the date that we were supposed to take it. I meant to take the test on that Saturday that they were offering it, but I completely forgot about it until the day of. I am also enjoying training for the 5K that I plan on doing with two of my friends from High Sierra. I plan on doing a run tomorrow morning. I never thought that I would say this, but I am actually beginning to enjoy running. Not only is it good exercise, but it gives me time to myself to think about some of the things that are going on in my life in this moment. Now I am starting to see it as relaxing, whereas I was only seeing it as work before now. I think that High Sierra has changed the way that I think about running. When I took my fit for life class, I never thought that I would receive as much love and support from my professor and my classmates as I did. They pushed me to do my best every single time that we ran; and Jake even came back one time in order to help push me to finish strong. I am truly grateful for them being willing to be patient with me and never give up on me, even when I wanted to give up on myself. High Sierra is where I ran my first 5K, and fell in love with running. Burns, my fit for life and Plenary professor signed me up as a surprise, since most of the rest of the cohort was running the half marathon in Fresno, and Burns' husband JK was running the full marathon. I was also very grateful to JK, because he was one of the ones that were encouraging me to continue training, even after we left High Sierra. I honestly really miss being up there. I want to go back up to spend another semester there, because it was so peaceful and quiet. It was a much slower pace than down here in Los Angeles. The only thing that is holding me back right now is finances. The semester is a good $2-3,000 more expensive than what I pay on main campus. That is why I had to take this semester off; I still owe $4,619 from last semester. If I were to go back, I would probably go back in the spring, so that I would have all summer to pay off whatever debt that I may owe. But I think that taking this semester off will be good for me because it will give me time to reflect on my life and what I need and want to do right now. I know for a fact that I am going to go back to school; it's just a matter of whether I go back for the Summer 2 session or whether I have to wait until the Fall. If I wait until the Fall, I would be graduating a semester later, which is fine as long as I can get my degree. I am going to pay as much as I can each month, and hopefully I will be able to register for classes in March at the earliest, and May at the latest. I am just looking forward to getting back into the routine of going to school, because right now I miss it a lot. Even though I am working, I still feel as though I'm not being as productive as I would like to be. I have had a lot of days off because of the holiday, and that has not helped matters at all. But I am getting paid well, and I got a lot of hours in last week. With JM Staffing, we get paid every week, and that has made it easier for me to be able to pay the bills that I have.